epiphany.

I go back to work tomorrow, i am so happy.
I miss work.It has been four days and i feel like i have been stuck at home for like a month.
i slept,played basketball and ate(too much).
How unproductive.
So yesterday i decided to go down to the park around 3 in the morning,couldn't sleep.
It was awesome, i used to be there almost everyday,sitting,sinking and thinking.
Things really do change, about a month ago i was shoving countless amounts of alcohol down my throat almost every night,
wallowing and suffering from hangovers during the day.
And now, im either working or at home sleeping.( i wake up just in time to go to work almost everyday)
I kinda like it now.Everything's drama-less, my emotions stop taking over my mind and body.
i'm happy. i'm stronger i am a rock.


Thank you for putting that constant smile on my face :)
I hope i do the same for you.

Sundays go to fast.
I spent the whole day sleeping, i went to bed  when the sun was up and woke up when the sun was down.
And for being so smart, i am probably going to be up all farkin night cause i had too much sleep during the day.
excellent. good job jo.
so,im working everyday this week except thursday and sunday.
I think i need to gym soon. i am getting fatter.Or like diet or something.
Get myself toned again.Or everyday is going to be a feel fat day for me.
I'm off to buy ciggs! i didn't smoke the whole day!
goodbye.

im feeling all giggly and hyper!

Life is what you make it.
You can either see the cup as half full or half empty.


 

so from now on.
i will keep everything in.

you gave me nothing and thats all i have left.

My week has been alright.
I've been working, sleeping, drinking(in moderation).
Met a few unexpected faces.
They dont look as familiar anymore.
Oh well.
hopefully when i get my pay its enough to get me my i phone, a manicure, new hair, new clothes.


gotta go.
have fun party people.

work work work work work work work work.
ahaha.
i got my life back.

I want to give you everything you ever dreamt of.
I want to make you smile every minute of every day.
I want to love you.

But i doubt you'd want me to.

The chalet was amazing.
The people there were far beyond amazing.
I want to grow old with them i swear.

My weekend was alright.
i get to see the manbo tomorrow!
Shina my love.
i miss you.
We have to meet soon soon soon!

 Today was a very productive day.
-Swimming with the leo and marc.
-did my resume
-sent it over to the night safari
i hope i get the job. i hope i get the job.
Tomorrow no partying. 
Saturday! KM8+Special K! 
MICHAEL YEO! AND THE MANBO!
yall better go! please.
thank you leolly for the awesome day.

"so sun, please shine through this dark cloud that has been over my head for the longest time".

COLDPLAY last night was fucking amazing.
I think i payed heaven a visit.
I could actually feel the smile on my face.
I fucking want to be stuck at a coldplay concert forever.

happy birthday mommy.
i wish you were here,i want to stay in your arms forever.
that is where i belong ,that is my home.
you're amazing.
i'll never stop loving you.

I'm sorry for dragging you down with me, without even realizing it.

 I'll admit
For what I've done, I am not proud
But there's no need to pretend, no need for innocence
My verdict has come in,
It says I'm guilty for my sins this time.
I thought I could escape,
But then I finally felt the weight,
Of my crimes.

This is passion, it's not love,
Infatuation never ends up right.
I know in the end this will turn out wrong
See, I've been known to fall in love.
But sometimes love just is not enough.

So here's to living life miserably.
And here's to all the lonely stories that I've told.
I could hope for a better day.
No longer holding on to all the things that cloud my mind.
Maybe then the weight of the world wouldn't seem so heavy.
But then again I'll probably always feel this way.



have a great weekend.

Today was an awesome day.
i went to town with the one and only manbo.
Went for dinner with his mommy and him at Senkang.
We had sushi.
came home.slept.
Met godpa downstairs for supper.
And now i am loading gossip girls.
Hopefully kc come's home later then usual so i can actually watch the episode.
haha i lovvveee you kace.

Tomorrow's going to be a long day.
Going for my appointment in the morning.
hopefully,they take my cast off!
Baking cookies for the lisa.
And then going for the party in the evening.
it doesnt really sound like a long day.
But i am telling you baking cookies and sitting around the hospital is tiring.
or maybe i really am a couch potato.

okay bye bye.

I got,
to see the leolly the olly the jon the lisa.
to eat waffles.
my daily dosage of hearing the manbo, the lisa the kc the josh and the aunty gina.
a new friend.
i am satisfied.

So today stated of rather badly.
I woke up feeling like the Grinch.
went for mass and i came home feeling a little better.
I think ah because i went for mass and all god decided to reward me with three little angels.
my siblings,lise, kace and josh.
we went to mustafa.
It was awesome, we all got new watches.( spank you lise)
Oh and i couldn't possibly forget the last angel right, had to get something for the Manbo.

manbo.
I'll carry your cross for you any day even if it breaks me.
Because nothing can be as painful as  knowing your heart isn't smiling.
If theres anyone in this world that deserves to happy forever it would be you.
i tell you secret k....."i lurr you".
Looks like its not a secret anymore!


So josh is leaving to Philippines in two hours.
I fell happy and sad.
he deserves to see his family.
Gonna miss that annoying thing.
Idiot always leaving me behind.

sameals.
the samey's and the meals.
We are unbreakable.